period

that’s the thing about having your period again.

this absolute need to burn everything to the ground because someone forgot something. that someone could be you. there’s a rock in your shoe. a sports event means your show isn’t on. everything is wrong.

the world is horrible and it all must be burned down.

human beings are terrible. all you feel is terrible and the only thing that could possibly make you feel better is fire and death and all things illegal.

but you don’t think you’re ready for prison so instead you do the things the internet has told you to do.

you drink some water.

you take deep breaths.

you turn on a meditation app.

if you’re one of those people you go to a boxing class or try to kill it with cardio.

i used to be one of those people.

i thought if i could punish myself and make something inside of me hurt more than the thing itself it would be better for everyone. it’s always better for everyone if i just hurt the thing inside of me instead of the thing outside this skin.

how powerful are my hormones.